Emotions...

I never expected it to come from my own 8-months old daughter.. but last night marked the beginning of Nabilah truly expressed her emotions while sleeping.. Sunday was supposed to be a relax day for both of us.. but since we woke up late for sahur, my hubby and I only managed to eat murtabak bought for buka puasa. So, we kind of 'extra hungry' yesterday.. hehehe... My effort to put Nabilah down to sleep was to no avail.. she won't buy it, drank her milk and kept on playing with everything that she can get hold onto.. we were frustrated and yelled to each other even to Nabilah, just to show her that mummy and daddy are in dire need for the afternoon nap.. but she just want to play.. we did bring her to pasar ramadhan and I guessed she must be quite happy with that.. she did not cry, though.. but her eyes meant something.. something that I can never figure out until last night. She cried and cried endlessly throughout the night.. me, alonewith her just couldn't believe my baby was crying non-stop from half past eleven until near two in the morning.. maybe something was bothering her.. maybe she kept thinking about her mummy and daddy yelling to her because she doesn't want to sleep.. or something was bothering her that my naked eyes could not see but she can.. I was, too, afraid and held her close to me as long as I could. I went out of the room and took out her pouch (that was filled with a handkerchief written with ayat-ayat suci Al-Quran) from her grandpa. Put it near her head and the room went silent.. she was at ease and began to drift.. maybe she finally overcome her sadness and realize that mummy will never leave her alone.. finally, I can get my peace and slept like there will be no other night...



p/s: baby knows many ways to hide their emotions.. mine is tactfully hold it until she sleeps and burst it in her dreams.. we both adore you anyway..