Monday blues

I am a bit low today. Low in motivation to work despite that in reality, I will be having an important meeting with my potential collaborator in just an hour. I have not do any reading yet, neither writing out the spec. I am losing my focus. I had a bad weekend. My DH started to feel sick on Saturday and we have not come to a good agreement while sending out customers order. Sunday afternoon was a bad time for me. I hate travelling in the hot sun. My kids are becoming notorious with the Avanza. And this morning, I drove the green car with headache. They were jumping front to back and vice versa all the way to the office. I nearly loose my patience, yelled one or two times and they understood well that mommy is not having a good Monday! I'm losing my patience, I'm losing my focus. I hate when DH is sick which means I have to take care of everything on my own during the weekend, and last weekend was the third weekend he is sick with whatever fever, flu etcetera etc. I am tired, I don't know whether I can bear another weekend with a sick DH. Pls don't be sick again. I pray hard that he will get a new job, the current one is getting him sick all the time. I cannot hear the company's name which he is working because they are mean people, idiots running the company. And slowly it affect me in one way or another. I don't know whether I should shout or yell or cry on top of my lung, it is too stressful! Argghh!!