At Last..

I have been up and down for the past two months. Right after my latest proposal was approved in July, I became stagnant. Maybe because of exhaustion after organizing the so-called international big event at Port Dickson (I have not sent in the report yet!). It was dangerous to me, and I fully realized it today when I started keying in my planning for the project. I have big potential of running in late if i continued to become stagnant. But how can I move faster when I have only two hands and one brain? Focus, focus and focus. That's exactly what Sayed Danish adviced me now and then. I need to focus my energy and channel it to the right way. Not wondering about things here and there. I want to make a million in 5 years, I want to have my PhD before my 40th birthday etc. I have many dreams, but I need to realize it one by one. So, today, I quickly stashed my plan to go shopping (again!) and sit down at my desk finishing the planning sheet. I went down to see my boss and asked for the form I have given him one week before. Got it back from him and I started packing the rest. I will bring back the application form, fill in tonight and send it out tomorrow to the Registrar. Tomorrow morning, I will be on standby for the presentation. I hope I don't have to go in there for the third time just to ask permission to use the money for what it has been budgeted for. I really really hope that they do understand that I need to move on and be someone that I dream to be. I always told my beautiful toddlers that they can dream whatever they want to dream, because I say, if you stop dreaming, you will stop living. My dreams, my goals, will come true one day.

A new day has come... truly agree with you Celine!