Clutter..

Last night I was furious with my kids. They were so demanding until I could not breathe. I was shouting and yelling at them, just enough to make them cry. I was being a bad mom. Then their dad called, they started to tell-story. As I was cleaning the kitchen, my DH wanted to speak with me. It was a tough time handling two beautiful energetic toddlers alone. He asked whether I wanted my mom to come over, I said no. I believe I can handle them in an hour or so. I asked him to tell them exactly what I want them to do. He did, and amazingly after they put down the telephone, everything changed. They became their usual self.. bubbly but not too demanding. I guess they missed daddy very much up to a point, they will only listen to him, not me. Bedtime is much easier last night. We looked at Nabilah's art work and she slept with that file beside her pillow and Najihah with her usual routine, an art paper clutched tightly to sleep.

 

Quietly, I wonder what made me so furious during the evening? I had a tiring day, first day of my 'red' day - it is more tiring when you're having it. I came back to a cluttered house, swept but un'mop' for nearly a week (we were tired, and DH was even more tired than me). I felt the floor sticky as if I am walking on a fly-paper, yucks! Maybe that is the reason. I started cleaning up - sweeping the house, mopping the living room and tidying up the kitchen. Books and toys in the box, and cushions on the sofa. I took out all DVDs and knick knacks from the wardrobe and started arranging them in those newly smartly designed wardbore organizer boxes I bought at eCosway (cheaper than those solds in Carrefours or Giants!). I found Crystal Swarovski vase of glass flowers someone gave us during the wedding and eventually managed to arrange them on the side table, just enough to hide it from the kids but still able to give a breathe of fresh color into the bedroom. I hope they won't be attracted with the shiny orange beads in the vase. Strange but true, I felt more comfortable. I wished I got the backdated pay this Friday, I really want to buy the high closet for the bedroom, a nice bookshelf for the kids' books and more smart boxes to organize their toys in the living room.

 

It was the clutter that clutterred my mind, body and soul! Should not blame the kids, though. It is their natural tendencies to make clutter. It is my responsiblity to teach them to be uncluttered all the time.

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Best Regards,
Noradlina
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