Compassion..

I was down with flu on Tuesday. With the kids at home, and not much rest as expected, the sickness became worst on Tuesday night. It was my turn to take care of the kids, while DH went to the night class. I blamed the wrong medicine for causing my headache and stomach pain while having sort-of-PMS syndrome with the kids. Luckily they understood and did not make much fuss about it until bedtime. I slept earlier than them, hoping that they will eventually fall asleep by themselves. What I really hate when I sick was that DH never show sympathy on me, kept on telling about tons of work load to do and those sick people at the office blackmailing him and how he cannot take leave to care for the children. I had to bear his never ending complaint with my headache. What I really wanted was he drop by home during lunch and pack some food for us, as I have no mood to cook with my runny nose and very bad headache. And that is exactly what I said. I could not understand why it is sometimes very difficult to say things to a man, even if he is your own husband. I slept through the morning after breakfast with the girls, and they played in the living room with their friends. Woke up at noon and no sign of DH yet but the girls were starving. I cooked very simple meal for them, and they ate heartily. Near to 1 pm, DH came back without food and he thought of getting the girls out to buy lunch. Very bad plan, as the girls were already eaten and they are ready for naptime. There is no way that I can be sick more than this morning, so, I took 3 times more doses of Vitamin C (Redoxon.. my fav) and gulped in Hiraq Jeli Gamat, Chrorella, Vitamin B plus and EPO. Really could not depend on DH to help me out while I am sick. This is the third time that I felt abandoned because of sickness, and I really pray hard that I am free from major sickness because I knew that I will be left alone with the misery. No compassionate partner for shoulder to cry on. I wanted to get better to play with the children better. Later in the evening, my runny nose was gone and no more headache. I can cook, read story book and even help them print out the cartoons from internet while waiting for DH to come home. It was such a relief for me.

Tomorrow, I will start consuming lots of vitamins for my health again...