Something to think about..

Sometimes I was too involve in something that makes me forget I have several people deserve attention more than anyone in my circle of life. They are my children, my parents and most of all, my beloved husband. I won't tell much about what's going on with him, but deep in my heart I know that he is just being himself. He was brought up in a fairly good environment, with trains of siblings and just enough for everyone kind-of-life. I hate to admit that he was the one I truly envied throughout my journey in seeking further education and research. Sometimes I do think that I deserve a better partner but to think about separating is way beyond my will. I was tired after a week of sleepless nights and complaints from main customers but that does not make me
deserve to be treated more than him at home. He has issues to deal with, especially with his bosses and so do I.

After reading an article of something like " you can avoid separation and get closer to each other'', I know we are still in good condition. We can play with our children happily, still breathing after few heated arguments, sharing anger and frustrations over un-deserved human beings in the office and so on. Having different line of expertise (he's a planner with money in mind, I am a planner with machine in mind), made me think that we complement each other more than we should. There are times that I hope I can seek advice from him for my 'broken' machine at the office but I know that if I get it from him directly, there will be no sense of accomplishment in my work. Being me, who has always been so-called spoon fed up till my secondary school. Well, not directly but most of the time. So, the 'nice guy' will have to in stored somewhere else, or will be used only for imagination or to be one thing that I look for to get
rid of my Monday morning blues. My most inspired person will still be my husband and my children. Full stop.