Of loyalty and passion...

After 3 days, 4 nights of holidaying at home, it is time to work again. I have been procrastinating a lot at home eversince my doldrums started. I could not start working, low motivation and too much work kill my creativity. I could not focus but trying very hard to plan in doing the work according to its schedule. At the end, I ended up watching 4 episodes of Desperate Housewives (episode 14 was online video) two nights in a row. It was bliss. I did watch CSI:Miami half way, and House S5:E1.. hehehe.. I had quite a drama with my two girls on Sunday evening; I hoped I did not yell too loud because she seems to understand each word that I say that evening. We had quiet dinner at Rasamas Bangi, and they ate a lot. Today I am in the office missing them already and could not decide on dinner menu tonite. I may skip dinner if I eat Jus Diet Mate 5 that I bought on Saturday, but if I did not drink it, I’ll be starving thru the nite.

 

What I really wanted to write was on people expectation on me and my work. Today I knew that someone is closely watching my performance from afar and he was happy for me that I got the Award. He is my long time mentor while I was merely an industrial trainee at this office back in 2000. I forgot that some people do recognize my work. When I told DH about the nomination and the acceptance, he did not say a word. Or smile. Or do anything. I reluctantly told him about it all, although deep inside me I wanted him to achieve something that he is proud of. But I knew he is proud of me, just that I am not too sure. On Saturday, DH spoke to Ivy about me getting some Award from the company. Well, there he goes at last, saying something of my achievement. At least I knew that he is proud of me. People rarely know about me if they don’t work with me. I seldom was seen as popular or with glamorous clique, because I am not. I talked to people at lower working level trying to get away from my usual work and listen to everyday housewives tell tales. But I don’t like office politics; I am trying hard to stay away from it. I talked to janitors, cleaners, gardeners, dispatches etc because I knew without them the office cannot function the way it is now. They clean and tidy my place to work in. I am just being myself, and I know there are people who will talk behind my back when they knew that I got this Award.

 

Life goes on. I started knowing this company in 2000, and now it is 2009. Talk about loyalty and passion; I think I am in the right place.