Reflection..

I received news that DH contract was not renewed. We have known this fact for months, I was not that surprised. About the same time, I approved evaluation to absorb my technician to be a permanent employee. Strange isn’t it? Someone gain is someone else loss. That is how the world works. What comes around goes around. It is a sad day, but a new beginning. Without a new contract for the next two months, I’m gonna take cost cutting measures from dining to shopping etc just to make ends meet. We have not being very thrifty for the past one year because our finances were getting better and the kids deserved a better education. The perfume business will stay same goes with the kids’ education, insurance policies and savings. Last night, while cleaning up I had time (and the whole house to myself) to reflect on what exactly I am looking for in this world. Yesterday, I had a blast Monday celebrating big Bossed birthdays and KHC did mention that family is important for us to move forward. He is correct, very true that at some point I felt guilty not telling DH exactly what I am planning to do with my outstation work and we always discuss the best way for everyone when I am planning for outstation work. I quietly reflect at some point I broke into tears thinking how I am going to handle the kids with so little fund, with their tantrums and all but eventually I managed to get past all of those things with DH help. Want I really wanted was a happy and blessed family to fall back into while I’m in trouble with a good career for intention of helping my husband as the breadwinner. So, this time I’ll help him go through the mid-life crisis again so that we can continue our life as khalifah di bumi Allah, custodian of our precious children and caretaker of our old age parents. Insyaallah.