A busy + stressful week..

I am not much into writing these few days. Many things are happening at the same time. This week is the installation of the servers. I was told that my network is sick and I have no idea what or why it happened. I believed I had followed the right configuration, but the diagnostic have shown the other way round. The installer has been very nice not to freak out or blaming me for not doing the right thing. But it is definitely weird. Now four systems are running concurrently and the migration was smooth. I was lucky that the IT guy still here to configure the network and we have finished the first phase today. Next week will be more challenging. I have to find two PCs with good resources to install the softwares. I may have to sacrifice my own PC and work on a laptop for a while, if I cannot find the PCs. The worst part of today was we found the stroke antenna was stolen again at the site. It was unbelievable, the antenna has been on top of the building and only an authorized person can be let onto the rooftop. That's why the sensor was not seeing anything when they went to check it out last two weeks. Very bad. Then, the LC issues. Despite my very own initiative to handle this matter on my own, I received bad email from the supplier, threatening us to reschedule the work until they received the first payment. I was so mad that I sent a reply listing all the wrongdoings started from them and yet they have heart to threaten the customer. Very bad project manager. I don't wish to meet him in any way at any place. At least the internal relations manager has sent a thank you email and even mentioned that part of the delay was from their side. But still, I was not that keen on this annoying guy. The last thing will be finding a baby sitter for next Monday. The kids' school will be closed after Sports Day event tomorrow, and my husband wanted to study on Monday for his exam on Tuesday. He asked me to take care of the children. I couldn't take any day off for next week because of the ongoing installation and training work but he seemed to not understand or listening to me. I went to call a baby sitter nearby our house and she is willing to take care of the kids for a fee. I called my husband few times during the day but never pick up, texted him but never reply. And out of sudden he texted me saying that he already in the university and left the key at home. So, the phone is working, he just bold enough to ignore my call and messages. I felt so bad and depressed knowing that someone I love could do that to me. It was different if he missed his friends' call or messages, he will quickly return the call or messages, any time any where, even while driving in the car. It was frustrating for me, because I need to know his opinion of sending the kids to baby sitter but he just hanged up on me when I called him at the universities. It was as if all I did is wrong and he doesn't want to talk about it anymore. I was in the middle of chaos in the lab (at least for me) and another problem at home won't help me in this case. I was not talking to him other than answering his questions tonight. Not much to tell because he will never listen. I read an article posted by one of my friends about the perfect woman in Islam but I don't think that I wanted to know more about it because sometime it is unfair for the women to treat their husband like they are ask to, but in return, all she gets is cold face, ignorant and sometime foolish act. My life is my choice, they will be no one that can control my life other than Allah. But I am still here, for the kids. It was sad. One day we were happy, maybe because he is happy with something that only he can understand, and the next day we will be quarreling over kids' off day. That is why I am always crying inside, and writing is the best thing that can help me overcome this stress.