Hard times...

I did not have the 'usual' Monday morning blues today.. pretty unusual but yep, I was working from 9.30 (because we have the usual Monday morning meeting for an hour.. work starts at 9.30 on Monday..) until 5.10, when I decided to check my email and write something. I had a quick lunch at Cempaka Food Court, Billion and went to Cosway before that. Pretty busy Monday for me. It was because I left my laptop power cable in the office during weekend. I cannot work without it, the battery was too low.. Silly me!



I did finish several parts of the guideline, which I need to submit on Wednesday. I did not bother to jot down what my boss asked or rather suggest me to do on the system because I already have it in my mind of doing for a very, very long time. It is just a matter of time. He did not give me enough time to settle things one by one. Sometimes it frustrates me more each day, I cannot do what I really want to do. I have been asked to fit here and there.. to finish up some unfinish business from someone else. It has been so long, almost two years.. when I think the others are escalating more than myself in term of their technical capabilities, to their liking.



This morning, a colleague talked about 'A Butterfly's Lesson'. It strucked my mind, that maybe, in a subtle way, I've been shielded and pampered too much. Until at one point, I felt that I don't have the freedom to choose things that I want to do. Things that I can do better than anyone else. Perhaps, it is a good time to take a long break.



p/s: Wisconsin Univ. has accepted his doctorate proposal. I guess we'll be going there in a few months time :-) Should start thinking of taking the 'test'.. hehehe...